Today my sophomore ended and my junior year began. And I mean college sophomore and college junior. Crazy how time flies, right? Honestly I really want to reflect on this past year and take notes on what I have learned and all that, but my brain is mush and my mind has kind of stopped thinking for awhile. And that is okay, I need a break.
BUT. I can’t help to not think about what I blogged about a week or two ago. What that blog consisted of was this: God’s got it all under control, take it one day at a time, make small checklists, take your daily bread, and be joyful.
HA. Three days later, I was back to my old routine of stress and hair pulling. Isn’t that the most frustrating thing ever? When God teaches you something, leads you into this great understanding of how He is holding you and it will all be fine, and then BOOM life’s stupid messes blur your vision and you’re right back where you started.
That picture above is me taking that day a few steps ahead of where The Lord wanted me to, stressed beyond belief with a pile of work in my way of a restful weekend. So instead of me resting in The Lord and taking one step at a time, I freaked, tripped over my jumbled mind and landed in that puddle of homework.
And what did The Lord have to say to that?
“Didn’t I tell you not to get ahead of yourself?”
Yeah that’s what he told me, but that was after I stressed for 2 or 3 days straight. Funny how He was still teaching me even after I thought I had fully understood the lesson.
So I am sitting here in my dorm room, with 2 nights left in room 404. I’m getting teary eyed thinking about all the memories that I made in this room and how next year will be very different. I’ve learned so much about friendships, relationships, myself, and The Lord. I have 2 and a half days left on this campus before I head back home and “rest” for 4 months. School is over, no more checklists.
And what did I learn?
Stressing is not worth it. There is always an end to the craziness. The day will end, the week will end, and eventually the semester will end, and then it will all be over. And when it is all over and done with, you will wish that you did something differently. And as I sit in my room of one that used to be a room of two, I am sad for the times that I did not take advantage of this wonderful campus and what is has to offer. I’m freaked out about teaching still, and I already miss my friends that are still here.
But one thing I know is that life is full of second chances. The Lord’s grace is never ending (HALLELUJAH) and I am only 20 years old. Life still has a lot to offer, and God has so much more planned for me and I am so ready to see where He takes me.
I just want to live my life for Jesus, be who He wants me to be, and be bold for His name.
Im still taking it one day at a time, seeing my life as a crazy, weird, more than I could ever deserve, adventure with Christ as my guide.