Anyone else tired?
And please don’t for the life of me tell me to hop of Instagram and stop comparing myself to her or to them or to their life or her style.
Because I know that is a bigger player in this ever looming scheme of exhaustion.
But what I am really getting at is this- is anyone else tired of having to feel like the have it all together, online and real life?
Is anyone else tired of the weight of the things they can’t change, or the brick on their chest causing each breath to be a little more work?
Now if my dad were reading this he would say, “eh sissy, rub some dirt in it, you’ll be fine. only be you and don’t care about anyone else.”
Thanks Dad, but, yup, the weight is still there.
It has something to do with our generation, the millennials who were given everything, who dreamed bigger than the ones before them, who decided to feel and dig deeper because they could, because they wanted to.
Well, we got what we wanted.
We were given the world and we ran with it. We dreamed big and we never stopped moving. We dug deep and felt deeper, but what we kept finding were more dreams, more feelings, more dirt to keep digging. We kept finding, keep finding, deeper holes leading to deeper questions.
I think our parents’ generation and the generation’s before them had something good that we have had to fight to get back, something we lost in our digging for more.
They had what they had, and they were content and lived.
Now, this isn’t to say no one dreamed, no one moved on, no one searched for deeper meaning. What I mean is, they stood where their feet were.
They lived where they were planted.
Now, if it were up to me, I’d have my mom and dad diggin’ and shovelin’ out all their feelings and hurts over their years of being human because yes I do believe it would do them some good. Could help with a lot of past, present and future hurt, no doubt.
What I’m getting at though. is this: yes we’ve dug and felt and lived a whole lot on the outside, yet we didn’t know when to stop.
And now we have found ourselves digging in circles. Making mountains out of mole hills, feeling feelings that were only meant to be felt once or twice.
That is why we are tired.
We are tired because no matter how much we’ve tried, no matter how many shovels of dirt we’ve swooped over our shoulders, we still haven’t found it.
Now if you know me, you know this is the place where I drop Jesus’ name and lay on that truth hard.
But hear me out for a second.
Our parents may have dug out a few holes themselves, maybe their parents one or two, as well. But they stopped because where they were, what they were doing, how they were living, that was tiring enough.
But we searched longer, deeper, wider, and yet, we came up with being just as tired, just has confused, just as worn down.
Doesn’t that at least send a whisper that maybe just maybe the answers are not inside us?
That maybe digging deeper and traveling more and sleeping less to live in the moment are not fulfilling because well, they weren’t ever meant to refill those holes anyway?
Maybe there is a weight, there is a heaviness, there are feelings and frustrations and hurt that are just inexplainable to where no amount of digging will lead to a happy ending.
And no generation can do it right because we can never get it right.
And that is okay.
Because we do not need to. We have Someone who has made it right for us.
Can I preach the Gospel to you real quick? I’m in need of a good reminder, too.
Jesus came to fill those holes. Jesus came to help us dig a little deeper, feel a little more, dream a little bigger, because He created us to do just that- live and breathe and and dream and go.
He created us to live with Him and in Him, but the weight and the questions, the comparison and the temptations, the twisted good and the half-ass truths have pulled us away from His perfect union and living, into where we are now- the weight, the hurt, the everything.
So instead of leaving us to fend for ourselves, He came to be with us. To live with us to and to give us a perfect example of how to flee from the bad and cling to the Good.
And not only that, He gave Himself so that we wouldn’t have to. He gave His life so that we could have ours, how it was truly meant to be from the beginning.
And now, do we not only get to live in communion and community and union with Him and His people, but we get to live forever with Him, in the way it was meant to be.
You are tired because life wasn’t supposed to be like this.
You are digging and finding no answers because you are looking in the wrong places.
Now I know why Jesus was always the right answer in Sunday school.
It’s because He is the right answer in everything, always.
See you soon,