I’m Numb + I Don’t Want To Be

I have become numb when disaster hits, and I do not want to be anymore.

From hurricanes, to shootings, to riots, to people just hurting people and this broken world breaking again and again and again.

It is scary how used to the hurt I have become; how nonchalant I react when I hear of the latest natural disaster or freak weather report.

It hurts to even admit, but when I first heard of all the devastation in Houston and the surrounding areas, I shrugged it off. I had heard it all before, hurricanes happen, weather sucks, life will go on.

And the worst part is, I didn’t even realize how horrible those thoughts were. I didn’t even catch the numbness and distraction and selfishness. I let it sit. I let the numbness win.

And what is even scarier, is that is what Satan wants. He wants us to get so used to the broken world, the broken people, the mess this world is, to where we don’t fight against it anymore. He wants us to sit back and let it all happen, the bigotry, the lack of compassion, the selfishness of “my life is more important than the man or woman, or child or elderly couple who are watching their lives crumble.”

And I have fallen into it. More than once, for longer than I would ever want to admit, I have fallen into the lie that this world is breaking and there is nothing that I can do to stop it.

Because no, I cannot stop this world from breaking, but I can give this world hope in the brokenness.

I can pray, I can give, I can open my dang eyes to the hurt around and do something about it.

Yes, the hurt will keep coming, but hell no is there any way I am going to let my heart harden to even just one life that needs Jesus and His love because I am too busy caring about what I am doing today or the next.

I am numb to the hurt of this world, and I do not want to be.

So I am doing something about it.

Who’s with me?

See ya soon,

Stephanie Lynn

P.S. Here is a place to start if you would like to do something for/help the victims of Hurricane Harvey.



2 thoughts on “I’m Numb + I Don’t Want To Be

  1. This is so true. We hear and see such horrible things in this world, we can get used to it. I think that even though you had those thoughts, it’s more important that you’ve recognized your “numbness”. Recognizing the problem and working to change it is how it all starts. Baby steps 🙂

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