The idea of teaching has always terrified me. I’ve never been confident in my ability to lead and teach children, and even with following my calling for teaching, the doubt of never being good enough or smart enough to teach still chased me. And when I look at my schedule for this semester, I still question whether or not I have the strength, the knowledge, and the skill to teach. For the first time ever, I will be IN the classroom teaching students. The thought scares the heck out of me, but that is where God steps in.
I have been continually praying for peace, for my doubts to be washed away. And every time, The Lord has answered. But as of tonight, He answered my eager prayer in a mighty mighty way. I have been extremely blessed to be a part of a university that cares about my personal relationship with Christ, and through recent events and chapels, the Lord has shown me how He will be holding me throughout my entire teaching career.
As most of you may know, the song Oceans by Hillsong has become incredibly popular in the last year. The song has always hit home for me, no matter what the circumstance, but tonight, God changed my entire view of that song and I would like to share that view with you.
Here is the song’s lyrics:
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will standAnd I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mineYour grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You’ve never failed and You won’t start now
So I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine
Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior
I will call upon Your Name
Keep my eyes above the waves
My soul will rest in Your embrace
I am Yours and You are mine