His is Peace

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The idea of teaching has always terrified me. I’ve never been confident in my ability to lead and teach children, and even with following my calling for teaching, the doubt of never being good enough or smart enough to teach still chased me. And when I look at my schedule for this semester, I still question whether or not I have the strength, the knowledge, and the skill to teach. For the first time ever, I will be IN the classroom teaching students. The thought scares the heck out of me, but that is where God steps in.

I have been continually praying for peace, for my doubts to be washed away. And every time, The Lord has answered. But as of tonight, He answered my eager prayer in a mighty mighty way. I have been extremely blessed to be a part of a university that cares about my personal relationship with Christ, and through recent events and chapels, the Lord has shown me how He will be holding me throughout my entire teaching career.

As most of you may know, the song Oceans by Hillsong has become incredibly popular in the last year. The song has always hit home for me, no matter what the circumstance, but tonight, God changed my entire view of that song and I would like to share that view with you.

Here is the song’s lyrics:

You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will standAnd I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mineYour grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You’ve never failed and You won’t start now

So I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior

I will call upon Your Name
Keep my eyes above the waves
My soul will rest in Your embrace
I am Yours and You are mine

After singing this song 4 or 5 times in the last 5 days, God was finally able to get His point across to me.
He has called me to teach, to the ‘great unknown where my feet may fail.’ Yet I find Him in the mystery and in the oceans of doubt, and my faith will always be able to stand. His grace is always overflowing and His SOVEREIGN hand will be there to guide me, and even when the fear surrounds me, He has never failed me and He wont start now.
        So when I call upon His name when I first enter the classroom this year, He will keep my eyes about the waves. My soul will be
        resting in His embrace because I am His and He is mine.
So I am embracing His call. I am ready for His Spirit to lead me where my trust in Him has no borders. I want Him to take me deeper into my calling of teaching, I want to go deeper than my own feet could ever wander. And because of Him and His overwhelming Presence, my faith will grow stronger. My desire and passion to teach will grow stronger. All because I know that He will be right by my side.
Christ is my overwhelming Peace. His persistence in telling me that I am not inadequate to lead my students is whats given me the strength to finally let go of my stupid worries and fully surrender this crazy, scary calling all to Him, for His glory.
[[ And the peace of God, which surpasses every thought, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. ]]
                       Philippians 4:7
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